today is a TOTALLY boring day. last night reached home at around 3am..after mum played mahjong at amah house..was like damn freaking tired larr!by like around 12+ i already sleeping away already..den i had to be disturbed from that nice sleep just to go home..URGHHH..nvm..woke up around 10+ in the morning..den asked mum to go out for breakfast...i duno if its lucky or not..we met my dad's fren..OMG!!!they spent like 2 hours there catching up can!!!and all i could do was smile to the uncle and the aunty..and occasionally the 2 kids who were damn irritating..like fighting with each other every 3 minutes..haha...lucky i dun have younger siblings..haha...yeaa..and i spent the whole 2 hours stoning..and pretening i was listening to what they were talking about..hahha..den after that went ot buy some toiletries..and wanted to buy food..den the vendor attitude me..so i walk away..ahhaa...and i went back home and stayed at home for the rest of the day...i realise something!i dun like school cuz there's lessons..but i cannot live without going to school..haha..how ironic...and so i was damn bored..and i had nothing to do...so i practiced piano...and recorded the 29th song on my keyboard...wanted to call buddy..but she din pick up her phone..so i called BDP..heh..yay!!got sense of achievement lar!=)
hmmm..and as i was jus randomly playing songs on the piano....the emo-ness in me came out..ahha..it always happens..the piano has manymany memories..good and bad...yeaa..
i was jus thinking of my neighbour as i was playing the piano..this uncle...whom i was quite close to. i used to come home every afternoon after school and he'll be sitting at the stairs just beside my house...at night..he would go and mend the small little provision shop at the poolside..and i always go there and buy things without bringing money..and pay him when i get home cuz he jus lives opposite me. he was the only neighbour that i knew. he used to talk to me for a while when i get back and all...as time goes by..i got busier and came home later and later...meaning i dun see him as often as i do...yeaa...den there came this period of time where i totally din see him..i asked my parents if they saw him but they both said no...and i jus accepted that answer and din think so much...den one day...when i was alone with my dad..i asked again..'have u seen uncle ang recently?' and my dad looked at me..and paused. i din expect anything bad to be coming out from him..so i was like 'hello!!i'm asking you!' and dad replied..'he passed away a year ago.' ohh well..all i could say was..i was damn shocked when i heard that..i mean..why din they tell me earlier!??!why after one year den tell me..and jus now..as i was playing the piano..i was trying to remember when was the last time i actually saw him...yea...asked my parents why din they tell me and their reason was that they dun want me to be afraid of being alone at home since i always had to be left alone at home at night.hmmmm...
yup..and i was just thinking...recently..so many things have been happening..i duno if i'm just thinking too much..everything in my life at this point of time just don't seem so right..adding on to that..things have been happening to the people around me..and its like...everything jus seriously dun feel right..hmmm..are we expecting too much from ourselves?are we expecting too much from the people around us?i really don't know. all i feel at this point of time is that we really have to treasure the times we have with our love ones. stop taking people for granted. if u can give in, try to give in as much as u can. if you have anything to say to anyone at this point of time..don't hesitate anymore...do it today. do it now. cuz u'll never know what's gonna happen next. yupp. its a whole new week tmr..i just hope next week would be a muchmuch better one than this week. i know it will.=))
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